While I'm Waiting...

There is a song that I have clung to since watching "Fireproof". It's by John Waller, called "While I'm Waiting". I could not figure out how to post it here, so please click the link and watch the video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u3b2jw1rjBc

And that's what we are doing. I won't say I wasn't just a little disappointed when we didn't get a baby or a phone call on Thursday, but I wasn't devastated. I still believe that God had something exciting for me on Thursday. Could be that I will never know what it was...or it could be that I found out two of my friends are having girl babies, and my very dear friend, Nheree, found out she is having twins! I promise you, THAT was an exciting phone call!!!

It's funny how all day long I found myself watching and waiting to see what God was going to do. Wouldn't it be cool to watch for God every single day, anxiously awaiting to see what He was going to do for you???

So...for those of you who have been wondering...yes...God spoke clearly to me that Thursday was a day something exciting would happen. And yes, I still believe that was true. And yes, I still believe that God speaks to us through His word on a very personal level.

Now...here is what happened yesterday. I was weary. Sometimes Fridays hit me hard. It's the day before the day of the week that Jacob died. It's almost like Friday is the day I subconsciencely (SP?) prepare for Saturday. So, I was weary. I emailed our adoption ministry and told her that I think we would like to go back online. You know...so as not to close any doors God might work through. (Like He couldn't open a door supernaturally, anyway...but I am a control freak.) I send the email. I get my keys and my grocery list and head out. I call my friend and tell her what I did. Told her that I am not pursuing this any longer...if it happens, fine, if not, fine. TWO minutes after I finish that sentence, she says, "Oh my gosh...Tabitha was trying to call Amy!" (Amy is our contact in Texas.) She called 5 times at 20 minute intervals. Amy wasn't home! UGH!! But we know it was her. I think God was just reminding me that He is still on the throne and is still in control.

Our adoption ministry is giving us 10 days. If we do not hear anything or have a baby, we will go back online. I feel very comfortable with this decision. There are also, as I have said before, so many prayers that God has answered specifically to this situation that I haven't shared. I am just so anxious to share the "rest of the story" with you all!!

Today's verse was this:

Isaiah 65:24 NLT

I will answer them before they even call to me. While they are still talking about their needs, I will go ahead and answer their prayers!

"While I'm Waiting"

I'm waiting

I'm waiting on You, Lord

And I am hopeful

I'm waiting on You, Lord

Though it is painful

But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident

Takeing every step in obedience

While I'm waiting I will serve You

While I'm waiting I will worship

While I'm waiting I will not faint

I'll be running the race

Even while I wait

I'm waiting I'm waiting on You, Lord

And I am peaceful I'm waiting on You, Lord

Though it's not easy

But faithfully, I will wait

Yes, I will wait

I will serve You while I'm waiting

I will worship while I'm waiting

I will serve You while I'm waiting

I will worship while I'm waiting

I will serve you while I'm waiting

I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord